Post by Livia♥Jared on Jul 3, 2014 23:02:07 GMT -5
[03/07/2014 02:17:47] Olivia Devost: hey
[03/07/2014 02:18:05] Beth (✿◠‿◠): hi
[03/07/2014 02:18:23] Olivia Devost: am i bothering you?
[03/07/2014 02:19:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): noo
[03/07/2014 02:19:20] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i've just been watching criminal minds
[03/07/2014 02:19:35] Olivia Devost: yea i kinda guessed
[03/07/2014 02:19:37] Olivia Devost: i just missed you
[03/07/2014 02:20:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i missed you too
[03/07/2014 02:21:16] Olivia Devost: thanks for your messages. it means a lot to me. because... i know you made an effort for me and that means the world.
[03/07/2014 02:22:27] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i knew you'd like the messages lol
[03/07/2014 02:22:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm just been in my own little world this wek
[03/07/2014 02:22:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): week
[03/07/2014 02:22:49] Olivia Devost: i know. i know you. and i respect that. and... honestly, i trust you.
[03/07/2014 02:23:08] Olivia Devost: but gooosh ive been thinking about you non stop lol
[03/07/2014 02:29:29] Olivia Devost: are we ok?
[03/07/2014 02:29:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah
[03/07/2014 02:29:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): we're fine
[03/07/2014 02:29:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): trust me
[03/07/2014 02:29:59] Olivia Devost: you still love me?
[03/07/2014 02:31:16] Beth (✿◠‿◠): of course i do
[03/07/2014 02:32:01] Olivia Devost: i love you like fucking crazy Beth. but if you still want to spend some time alone, we dont have to talk tonight (heart)
[03/07/2014 02:32:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay. i love you too
[03/07/2014 02:32:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i've just been enjoying my nights watching criminal minds and movies
[03/07/2014 02:32:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i've been going to bed at like 8am every morning
[03/07/2014 02:32:59] Olivia Devost: im glad youre having a good time babe
[03/07/2014 02:33:17] Olivia Devost: im sorry i thought.. you know... since you were online lol.
[03/07/2014 02:33:26] Olivia Devost: i can stop bothering just... message me?
[03/07/2014 02:33:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i will of course
[03/07/2014 02:34:04] Olivia Devost: thank you babes. and know that im thinking about you.
[03/07/2014 02:34:15] Olivia Devost: i love you Beth, good night (heart)
[03/07/2014 02:34:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm thinking of you too <33
[03/07/2014 02:34:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm here on skype if you wanna message me later
[03/07/2014 02:34:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you too (heart)
[03/07/2014 02:34:47] Olivia Devost: i dont want to bother you too often.
[03/07/2014 02:35:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it doesn't matter
[03/07/2014 02:35:49] Olivia Devost: but youre ok right? i mean you. youre feeling good?
[03/07/2014 02:36:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah i'm alright
[03/07/2014 02:36:38] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i mean i'm paranoid about a few things but eh
[03/07/2014 02:36:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): paranoid
[03/07/2014 02:36:45] Olivia Devost: oh, what things?
[03/07/2014 02:37:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): eh
[03/07/2014 02:37:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nothing
[03/07/2014 02:37:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's a long story
[03/07/2014 02:37:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i don't think you wanna know about it
[03/07/2014 02:37:28] Olivia Devost: .. why
[03/07/2014 02:38:03] Olivia Devost: why wouldnt i wanna know?
[03/07/2014 02:38:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): sorta deals with kayleigh
[03/07/2014 02:38:36] Olivia Devost: oh. then id rather know.
[03/07/2014 02:38:50] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[03/07/2014 02:38:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): her
[03/07/2014 02:38:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and teresa have been talking
[03/07/2014 02:39:05] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i feel like they're talking about me
[03/07/2014 02:39:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and making fun of me
[03/07/2014 02:39:12] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and that gets me a bit upset
[03/07/2014 02:39:33] Olivia Devost: you know theyre bad people dont you
[03/07/2014 02:39:47] Olivia Devost: honestly... do you still love her?
[03/07/2014 02:40:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): there's always gonna be that deep down feeling in the pit of my stomach when i think about her but i don't love her
[03/07/2014 02:40:47] Olivia Devost: you know theyre doing that to get to you
[03/07/2014 02:41:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no idk
[03/07/2014 02:41:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it just makes me upset
[03/07/2014 02:41:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because all of my old friends are talking with kayleigh
[03/07/2014 02:41:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i really have nobody
[03/07/2014 02:41:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i just feel really alone
[03/07/2014 02:41:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and it's ironic idk
[03/07/2014 02:41:42] Olivia Devost: im always here
[03/07/2014 02:41:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i knowww
[03/07/2014 02:42:17] Olivia Devost: im sorry babe. i know it hurts. trust me i know.
[03/07/2014 02:42:29] Olivia Devost: and it sucks that she still has that power on you.
[03/07/2014 02:42:38] Olivia Devost: it sucks but it happens.
[03/07/2014 02:42:45] Olivia Devost: one day you wont give a shit
[03/07/2014 02:43:07] Olivia Devost: ill never hurt you
[03/07/2014 02:44:12] Olivia Devost: you know... i... im very scared shell go back to you
[03/07/2014 02:44:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): eh
[03/07/2014 02:45:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): she will try
[03/07/2014 02:45:04] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's in her nature
[03/07/2014 02:45:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): she'll follow me on tumb
[03/07/2014 02:45:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): tumblr
[03/07/2014 02:45:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and wait for me to message her
[03/07/2014 02:45:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but i won't
[03/07/2014 02:45:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'll just tell her to unfollow me and go suck a dick
[03/07/2014 02:45:29] Olivia Devost: but she will insist
[03/07/2014 02:45:34] Olivia Devost: shell say she misses you
[03/07/2014 02:45:38] Olivia Devost: and that she loves you
[03/07/2014 02:45:41] Olivia Devost: and that she was wrong to leave
[03/07/2014 02:46:58] Olivia Devost: i dont want to lose you
[03/07/2014 02:50:02] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nah
[03/07/2014 02:50:12] Beth (✿◠‿◠): she pinky promised me the last time that she wouldn't leave
[03/07/2014 02:50:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and she did
[03/07/2014 02:50:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): so i know it'll be bullshi
[03/07/2014 02:50:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): t
[03/07/2014 02:50:32] Olivia Devost: i hate asking for that but... promise?
[03/07/2014 02:51:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i promise
[03/07/2014 02:51:39] Olivia Devost: if she hears we talk, she definitely will try to get you back
[03/07/2014 02:52:28] Olivia Devost: i remember when she told me "stole your girl twice lol" not cool
[03/07/2014 02:56:30] Olivia Devost: im sorry im just... so jealous of her
[03/07/2014 02:56:55] Beth (✿◠‿◠): don't be?
[03/07/2014 02:56:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): we don't even talk
[03/07/2014 02:57:02] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i barely think of her
[03/07/2014 02:57:10] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and she doesn't care for me lol
[03/07/2014 02:57:30] Olivia Devost: its not that she cares for you, its that you care for her. and its legit and i cant blame you.
[03/07/2014 02:57:44] Olivia Devost: she just... she had you. like, she really had you. and she blew things out like 5 times.
[03/07/2014 02:58:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i don't know
[03/07/2014 02:58:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i'm being honest...
[03/07/2014 02:58:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i do miss her and i wish we could have been something a lot more but in a way i'm glad we're not because she's extremely bipolar and i don't wanna deal with that
[03/07/2014 02:59:01] Olivia Devost: do you think you can love me the way you love/loved her someday?
[03/07/2014 02:59:28] Beth (✿◠‿◠): sigh i don't know... and i know you're gonna hate me for saying that
[03/07/2014 02:59:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): the love i had for kayleigh
[03/07/2014 02:59:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): was the love i had for alicia
[03/07/2014 02:59:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): (my ex-girlfriend)
[03/07/2014 02:59:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i didn't have that for a long time
[03/07/2014 03:00:00] Olivia Devost: i dont hate you. im just wondering if its worth it, you know?
[03/07/2014 03:00:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i don't know. i've been confused for a very long time
[03/07/2014 03:00:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm still in the same spot as i was last year
[03/07/2014 03:01:23] Olivia Devost: should we try or not? because obviously, i love you a lot more than you love me
[03/07/2014 03:01:48] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i say no right now then you're gonna leave and not talk to me
[03/07/2014 03:01:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): why does it always come down to this?
[03/07/2014 03:01:56] Beth (✿◠‿◠): so sick of it
[03/07/2014 03:02:02] Olivia Devost: no!
[03/07/2014 03:02:14] Olivia Devost: im not fighting with you right now
[03/07/2014 03:02:20] Olivia Devost: im trying to save my heart
[03/07/2014 03:02:28] Olivia Devost: you know how much i love you Beth
[03/07/2014 03:02:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just go then
[03/07/2014 03:02:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because i'll never be certain
[03/07/2014 03:02:41] Olivia Devost: you want e to leave?
[03/07/2014 03:02:43] Olivia Devost: *me
[03/07/2014 03:03:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nobody just ever wants to hang out and be with me. why does everyone want something from me that i can't give?
[03/07/2014 03:03:09] Olivia Devost: youll never be certain of what?
[03/07/2014 03:03:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm crying right now because i'm never enough for anyone
[03/07/2014 03:03:24] Olivia Devost: youre eveything for me
[03/07/2014 03:03:28] Beth (✿◠‿◠): never certain aboout wanting to be with you
[03/07/2014 03:03:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and no i'm not
[03/07/2014 03:03:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i was then you'd give me time
[03/07/2014 03:03:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and space
[03/07/2014 03:03:45] Olivia Devost: i am
[03/07/2014 03:03:47] Olivia Devost: omg i am
[03/07/2014 03:04:00] Olivia Devost: i tried not to bother you for the past days didnt i? i mean... i try!
[03/07/2014 03:04:22] Olivia Devost: i dont want to fight
[03/07/2014 03:04:25] Olivia Devost: ok you make me so happy
[03/07/2014 03:04:36] Olivia Devost: i just want to make you that happy too someday thats all
[03/07/2014 03:05:04] Olivia Devost: you love kayleigh the way i love you. i mean i understand that. i saw that. ive been aware of that for months.
[03/07/2014 03:06:12] Olivia Devost: im sorry youre in a bad mood. and im sorry you miss her. idk what to tell you.
[03/07/2014 03:06:43] Olivia Devost: honestly baby... you say youre never enough but ifmim being honest, i feel like im not enough for you and i desperatly want to be.
[03/07/2014 03:07:27] Olivia Devost: ok now im crying too
[03/07/2014 03:07:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i don't know
[03/07/2014 03:07:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm just over it
[03/07/2014 03:07:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i just want us to be the way we are for now
[03/07/2014 03:08:05] Olivia Devost: over what?
[03/07/2014 03:08:48] Olivia Devost: and what is exactly the way we are?
[03/07/2014 03:08:53] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just everything
[03/07/2014 03:08:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): everyone has been pissing me off today
[03/07/2014 03:09:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm being attacked right now because of my sexuality
[03/07/2014 03:09:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i just feel shitty
[03/07/2014 03:09:47] Olivia Devost: im sorry. can i do anything?
[03/07/2014 03:10:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no it's fine
[03/07/2014 03:10:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm listening to music and calming down
[03/07/2014 03:11:37] Olivia Devost: if you... if you end up going back to kayleigh, will you let me know?
[03/07/2014 03:11:55] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i won't end up back with her
[03/07/2014 03:12:12] Olivia Devost: alright
[03/07/2014 03:12:27] Olivia Devost: its ok if you dont know if youll ever want to date me. i dont want to know right now. it doesnt matter.
[03/07/2014 03:12:52] Olivia Devost: i just want to know you miss me. i want to know you want me. i want to know you love me. i want the right now, not the tomorrow.
[03/07/2014 03:15:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i always miss you
[03/07/2014 03:15:43] Olivia Devost: thats a very good start
[03/07/2014 03:17:20] Olivia Devost: we can stay like that for now you know. i dont want to rush things either. weve been through a lot
[03/07/2014 03:18:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[03/07/2014 03:18:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): good
[03/07/2014 03:18:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): thank you
SOME RANDOM CHAT
[03/07/2014 03:46:26] Olivia Devost: and im sorry some ignorant has decided to tell you that pansexuality didnt exist
[03/07/2014 03:46:38] Olivia Devost: this is one of the things that make me hate ppl, seriously
[03/07/2014 03:49:01] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah
[03/07/2014 03:49:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's a bit frustrating
[03/07/2014 03:49:30] Olivia Devost: oh i know
[03/07/2014 03:50:56] Olivia Devost: but fuck them
[03/07/2014 03:51:38] Olivia Devost: there will always be stupid ppl
[03/07/2014 03:53:24] Beth (✿◠‿◠): trust me i know lol
[03/07/2014 03:53:43] Olivia Devost: we cant educate all of them
[03/07/2014 03:54:05] Olivia Devost: like i just got 2 questions about what is pansexuality
[03/07/2014 03:54:21] Olivia Devost: i feel like ive answered this question a mllion times
[03/07/2014 03:56:16] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i get at least fucking 20 questions a day asking what it means
[03/07/2014 03:56:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and brb imma try and find food
[03/07/2014 03:56:49] Olivia Devost: alright
[03/07/2014 04:14:19] Beth (✿◠‿◠): omg
[03/07/2014 04:14:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i was walking back into my room
[03/07/2014 04:14:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and it's dark
[03/07/2014 04:14:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i didn't know that my chair was in the middle of my room
[03/07/2014 04:14:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i ran into it
[03/07/2014 04:14:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): omg got so scared
[03/07/2014 04:14:58] Olivia Devost: omgggg
[03/07/2014 04:16:30] Olivia Devost: you ok tho?
[03/07/2014 04:17:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah i'm good
[03/07/2014 04:17:13] Olivia Devost: lol alright
[03/07/2014 04:17:21] Olivia Devost: so what are you doing?
[03/07/2014 04:17:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): about to wtach a movie
[03/07/2014 04:17:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): watch
[03/07/2014 04:17:56] Olivia Devost: which one
[03/07/2014 04:18:28] Beth (✿◠‿◠): the craft
[03/07/2014 04:18:36] Olivia Devost: love that movie
[03/07/2014 04:20:16] Olivia Devost: well, im gonna go to bed
[03/07/2014 04:21:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okie love
[03/07/2014 04:21:31] Olivia Devost: Beth i love you. so much.
[03/07/2014 04:21:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you too
[03/07/2014 04:21:59] Olivia Devost: you can message me whenever you want. it really makes me happy.
[03/07/2014 04:22:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[03/07/2014 04:22:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i will
[03/07/2014 04:22:13] Olivia Devost: good night baby. (heart)
[03/07/2014 04:22:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): goodnight (heart)
[03/07/2014 02:18:05] Beth (✿◠‿◠): hi
[03/07/2014 02:18:23] Olivia Devost: am i bothering you?
[03/07/2014 02:19:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): noo
[03/07/2014 02:19:20] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i've just been watching criminal minds
[03/07/2014 02:19:35] Olivia Devost: yea i kinda guessed
[03/07/2014 02:19:37] Olivia Devost: i just missed you
[03/07/2014 02:20:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i missed you too
[03/07/2014 02:21:16] Olivia Devost: thanks for your messages. it means a lot to me. because... i know you made an effort for me and that means the world.
[03/07/2014 02:22:27] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i knew you'd like the messages lol
[03/07/2014 02:22:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm just been in my own little world this wek
[03/07/2014 02:22:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): week
[03/07/2014 02:22:49] Olivia Devost: i know. i know you. and i respect that. and... honestly, i trust you.
[03/07/2014 02:23:08] Olivia Devost: but gooosh ive been thinking about you non stop lol
[03/07/2014 02:29:29] Olivia Devost: are we ok?
[03/07/2014 02:29:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah
[03/07/2014 02:29:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): we're fine
[03/07/2014 02:29:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): trust me
[03/07/2014 02:29:59] Olivia Devost: you still love me?
[03/07/2014 02:31:16] Beth (✿◠‿◠): of course i do
[03/07/2014 02:32:01] Olivia Devost: i love you like fucking crazy Beth.
but if you still want to spend some time alone, we dont have to talk tonight (heart)[03/07/2014 02:32:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay. i love you too
[03/07/2014 02:32:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i've just been enjoying my nights watching criminal minds and movies
[03/07/2014 02:32:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i've been going to bed at like 8am every morning
[03/07/2014 02:32:59] Olivia Devost: im glad youre having a good time babe
[03/07/2014 02:33:17] Olivia Devost: im sorry i thought.. you know... since you were online lol.
[03/07/2014 02:33:26] Olivia Devost: i can stop bothering just... message me?
[03/07/2014 02:33:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i will of course
[03/07/2014 02:34:04] Olivia Devost: thank you babes. and know that im thinking about you.
[03/07/2014 02:34:15] Olivia Devost: i love you Beth, good night
(heart)[03/07/2014 02:34:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm thinking of you too <33
[03/07/2014 02:34:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm here on skype if you wanna message me later
[03/07/2014 02:34:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you too (heart)
[03/07/2014 02:34:47] Olivia Devost: i dont want to bother you too often.
[03/07/2014 02:35:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it doesn't matter
[03/07/2014 02:35:49] Olivia Devost: but youre ok right? i mean you. youre feeling good?
[03/07/2014 02:36:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah i'm alright
[03/07/2014 02:36:38] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i mean i'm paranoid about a few things but eh
[03/07/2014 02:36:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): paranoid
[03/07/2014 02:36:45] Olivia Devost: oh, what things?
[03/07/2014 02:37:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): eh
[03/07/2014 02:37:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nothing
[03/07/2014 02:37:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's a long story
[03/07/2014 02:37:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i don't think you wanna know about it
[03/07/2014 02:37:28] Olivia Devost: .. why
[03/07/2014 02:38:03] Olivia Devost: why wouldnt i wanna know?
[03/07/2014 02:38:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): sorta deals with kayleigh
[03/07/2014 02:38:36] Olivia Devost: oh. then id rather know.
[03/07/2014 02:38:50] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[03/07/2014 02:38:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): her
[03/07/2014 02:38:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and teresa have been talking
[03/07/2014 02:39:05] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i feel like they're talking about me
[03/07/2014 02:39:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and making fun of me
[03/07/2014 02:39:12] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and that gets me a bit upset
[03/07/2014 02:39:33] Olivia Devost: you know theyre bad people dont you
[03/07/2014 02:39:47] Olivia Devost: honestly... do you still love her?
[03/07/2014 02:40:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): there's always gonna be that deep down feeling in the pit of my stomach when i think about her but i don't love her
[03/07/2014 02:40:47] Olivia Devost: you know theyre doing that to get to you
[03/07/2014 02:41:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no idk
[03/07/2014 02:41:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it just makes me upset
[03/07/2014 02:41:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because all of my old friends are talking with kayleigh
[03/07/2014 02:41:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i really have nobody
[03/07/2014 02:41:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i just feel really alone
[03/07/2014 02:41:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and it's ironic idk
[03/07/2014 02:41:42] Olivia Devost: im always here
[03/07/2014 02:41:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i knowww
[03/07/2014 02:42:17] Olivia Devost: im sorry babe. i know it hurts. trust me i know.
[03/07/2014 02:42:29] Olivia Devost: and it sucks that she still has that power on you.
[03/07/2014 02:42:38] Olivia Devost: it sucks but it happens.
[03/07/2014 02:42:45] Olivia Devost: one day you wont give a shit
[03/07/2014 02:43:07] Olivia Devost: ill never hurt you
[03/07/2014 02:44:12] Olivia Devost: you know... i... im very scared shell go back to you
[03/07/2014 02:44:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): eh
[03/07/2014 02:45:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): she will try
[03/07/2014 02:45:04] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's in her nature
[03/07/2014 02:45:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): she'll follow me on tumb
[03/07/2014 02:45:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): tumblr
[03/07/2014 02:45:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and wait for me to message her
[03/07/2014 02:45:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but i won't
[03/07/2014 02:45:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'll just tell her to unfollow me and go suck a dick
[03/07/2014 02:45:29] Olivia Devost: but she will insist
[03/07/2014 02:45:34] Olivia Devost: shell say she misses you
[03/07/2014 02:45:38] Olivia Devost: and that she loves you
[03/07/2014 02:45:41] Olivia Devost: and that she was wrong to leave
[03/07/2014 02:46:58] Olivia Devost: i dont want to lose you
[03/07/2014 02:50:02] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nah
[03/07/2014 02:50:12] Beth (✿◠‿◠): she pinky promised me the last time that she wouldn't leave
[03/07/2014 02:50:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and she did
[03/07/2014 02:50:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): so i know it'll be bullshi
[03/07/2014 02:50:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): t
[03/07/2014 02:50:32] Olivia Devost: i hate asking for that but... promise?
[03/07/2014 02:51:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i promise
[03/07/2014 02:51:39] Olivia Devost: if she hears we talk, she definitely will try to get you back
[03/07/2014 02:52:28] Olivia Devost: i remember when she told me "stole your girl twice lol" not cool
[03/07/2014 02:56:30] Olivia Devost: im sorry im just... so jealous of her
[03/07/2014 02:56:55] Beth (✿◠‿◠): don't be?
[03/07/2014 02:56:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): we don't even talk
[03/07/2014 02:57:02] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i barely think of her
[03/07/2014 02:57:10] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and she doesn't care for me lol
[03/07/2014 02:57:30] Olivia Devost: its not that she cares for you, its that you care for her. and its legit and i cant blame you.
[03/07/2014 02:57:44] Olivia Devost: she just... she had you. like, she really had you. and she blew things out like 5 times.
[03/07/2014 02:58:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i don't know
[03/07/2014 02:58:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i'm being honest...
[03/07/2014 02:58:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i do miss her and i wish we could have been something a lot more but in a way i'm glad we're not because she's extremely bipolar and i don't wanna deal with that
[03/07/2014 02:59:01] Olivia Devost: do you think you can love me the way you love/loved her someday?
[03/07/2014 02:59:28] Beth (✿◠‿◠): sigh i don't know... and i know you're gonna hate me for saying that
[03/07/2014 02:59:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): the love i had for kayleigh
[03/07/2014 02:59:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): was the love i had for alicia
[03/07/2014 02:59:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): (my ex-girlfriend)
[03/07/2014 02:59:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i didn't have that for a long time
[03/07/2014 03:00:00] Olivia Devost: i dont hate you. im just wondering if its worth it, you know?
[03/07/2014 03:00:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i don't know. i've been confused for a very long time
[03/07/2014 03:00:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm still in the same spot as i was last year
[03/07/2014 03:01:23] Olivia Devost: should we try or not? because obviously, i love you a lot more than you love me
[03/07/2014 03:01:48] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i say no right now then you're gonna leave and not talk to me
[03/07/2014 03:01:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): why does it always come down to this?
[03/07/2014 03:01:56] Beth (✿◠‿◠): so sick of it
[03/07/2014 03:02:02] Olivia Devost: no!
[03/07/2014 03:02:14] Olivia Devost: im not fighting with you right now
[03/07/2014 03:02:20] Olivia Devost: im trying to save my heart
[03/07/2014 03:02:28] Olivia Devost: you know how much i love you Beth
[03/07/2014 03:02:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just go then
[03/07/2014 03:02:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because i'll never be certain
[03/07/2014 03:02:41] Olivia Devost: you want e to leave?
[03/07/2014 03:02:43] Olivia Devost: *me
[03/07/2014 03:03:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nobody just ever wants to hang out and be with me. why does everyone want something from me that i can't give?
[03/07/2014 03:03:09] Olivia Devost: youll never be certain of what?
[03/07/2014 03:03:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm crying right now because i'm never enough for anyone
[03/07/2014 03:03:24] Olivia Devost: youre eveything for me
[03/07/2014 03:03:28] Beth (✿◠‿◠): never certain aboout wanting to be with you
[03/07/2014 03:03:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and no i'm not
[03/07/2014 03:03:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i was then you'd give me time
[03/07/2014 03:03:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and space
[03/07/2014 03:03:45] Olivia Devost: i am
[03/07/2014 03:03:47] Olivia Devost: omg i am
[03/07/2014 03:04:00] Olivia Devost: i tried not to bother you for the past days didnt i? i mean... i try!
[03/07/2014 03:04:22] Olivia Devost: i dont want to fight
[03/07/2014 03:04:25] Olivia Devost: ok you make me so happy
[03/07/2014 03:04:36] Olivia Devost: i just want to make you that happy too someday thats all
[03/07/2014 03:05:04] Olivia Devost: you love kayleigh the way i love you. i mean i understand that. i saw that. ive been aware of that for months.
[03/07/2014 03:06:12] Olivia Devost: im sorry youre in a bad mood. and im sorry you miss her. idk what to tell you.
[03/07/2014 03:06:43] Olivia Devost: honestly baby... you say youre never enough but ifmim being honest, i feel like im not enough for you and i desperatly want to be.
[03/07/2014 03:07:27] Olivia Devost: ok now im crying too
[03/07/2014 03:07:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i don't know
[03/07/2014 03:07:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm just over it
[03/07/2014 03:07:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i just want us to be the way we are for now
[03/07/2014 03:08:05] Olivia Devost: over what?
[03/07/2014 03:08:48] Olivia Devost: and what is exactly the way we are?
[03/07/2014 03:08:53] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just everything
[03/07/2014 03:08:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): everyone has been pissing me off today
[03/07/2014 03:09:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm being attacked right now because of my sexuality
[03/07/2014 03:09:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i just feel shitty
[03/07/2014 03:09:47] Olivia Devost: im sorry. can i do anything?
[03/07/2014 03:10:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no it's fine
[03/07/2014 03:10:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm listening to music and calming down
[03/07/2014 03:11:37] Olivia Devost: if you... if you end up going back to kayleigh, will you let me know?
[03/07/2014 03:11:55] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i won't end up back with her
[03/07/2014 03:12:12] Olivia Devost: alright
[03/07/2014 03:12:27] Olivia Devost: its ok if you dont know if youll ever want to date me. i dont want to know right now. it doesnt matter.
[03/07/2014 03:12:52] Olivia Devost: i just want to know you miss me. i want to know you want me. i want to know you love me. i want the right now, not the tomorrow.
[03/07/2014 03:15:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i always miss you
[03/07/2014 03:15:43] Olivia Devost: thats a very good start
[03/07/2014 03:17:20] Olivia Devost: we can stay like that for now you know. i dont want to rush things either. weve been through a lot
[03/07/2014 03:18:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[03/07/2014 03:18:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): good
[03/07/2014 03:18:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): thank you
SOME RANDOM CHAT
[03/07/2014 03:46:26] Olivia Devost: and im sorry some ignorant has decided to tell you that pansexuality didnt exist
[03/07/2014 03:46:38] Olivia Devost: this is one of the things that make me hate ppl, seriously
[03/07/2014 03:49:01] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah
[03/07/2014 03:49:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's a bit frustrating
[03/07/2014 03:49:30] Olivia Devost: oh i know
[03/07/2014 03:50:56] Olivia Devost: but fuck them
[03/07/2014 03:51:38] Olivia Devost: there will always be stupid ppl
[03/07/2014 03:53:24] Beth (✿◠‿◠): trust me i know lol
[03/07/2014 03:53:43] Olivia Devost: we cant educate all of them
[03/07/2014 03:54:05] Olivia Devost: like i just got 2 questions about what is pansexuality
[03/07/2014 03:54:21] Olivia Devost: i feel like ive answered this question a mllion times
[03/07/2014 03:56:16] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i get at least fucking 20 questions a day asking what it means
[03/07/2014 03:56:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and brb imma try and find food
[03/07/2014 03:56:49] Olivia Devost: alright
[03/07/2014 04:14:19] Beth (✿◠‿◠): omg
[03/07/2014 04:14:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i was walking back into my room
[03/07/2014 04:14:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and it's dark
[03/07/2014 04:14:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i didn't know that my chair was in the middle of my room
[03/07/2014 04:14:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and i ran into it
[03/07/2014 04:14:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): omg got so scared
[03/07/2014 04:14:58] Olivia Devost: omgggg
[03/07/2014 04:16:30] Olivia Devost: you ok tho?
[03/07/2014 04:17:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yeah i'm good
[03/07/2014 04:17:13] Olivia Devost: lol alright
[03/07/2014 04:17:21] Olivia Devost: so what are you doing?
[03/07/2014 04:17:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): about to wtach a movie
[03/07/2014 04:17:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): watch
[03/07/2014 04:17:56] Olivia Devost: which one
[03/07/2014 04:18:28] Beth (✿◠‿◠): the craft
[03/07/2014 04:18:36] Olivia Devost: love that movie
[03/07/2014 04:20:16] Olivia Devost: well, im gonna go to bed
[03/07/2014 04:21:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okie love
[03/07/2014 04:21:31] Olivia Devost: Beth i love you. so much.
[03/07/2014 04:21:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you too
[03/07/2014 04:21:59] Olivia Devost: you can message me whenever you want. it really makes me happy.
[03/07/2014 04:22:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[03/07/2014 04:22:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i will
[03/07/2014 04:22:13] Olivia Devost: good night baby. (heart)
[03/07/2014 04:22:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): goodnight (heart)
