Post by Livia♥Jared on Jun 18, 2014 1:43:45 GMT -5
Let me know when you stop being pissed so we can sort things out because ive had enough
[16/06/2014 12:09:52] Olivia Devost: Because i reread our convo and seriously it makes no sense. You keep contradicting yourself and i want the truth.
[16/06/2014 12:30:23] Olivia Devost: whatever. ill just send it to you and if you havent talked to me by tomorrow, i just wont bother anymore. here it is:
[16/06/2014 12:30:35] Olivia Devost: i dont even know why you come back to me. for a friendship? please, it makes no sense. you dont need me as a friend, you don't need me at all. last night you said if i didnt have a boyfriend and had asked if you'd date me you would have said "yes of course" but 10 mins later i asked you if youd ever date me and you said "no, at least not now". how does that even make sense anyway?
you say a lot of bullshit Beth and the worse is... i don't think you do it on purpose. you just dont know how to keep me close without me loving you and i'm telling you. it will not happen. you and i being only friends forever? forget it now. i told you a million times. every time you come back to me i end up thinking i can do it but no, i cant.
you say i dirty talk with many persons and that i have crushes and ppl on the side and you don't believe me when i say i dont. truth is, you dont give a fuck if i do crush on other ppl or not. you dont care who i dirty talk with. so why do you even bring it up?
you've had plenty of crushes since you and i started talking (granted, so did i, but yea).. you talked about them on your blog. you showed everyone you have feelings for them. when it comes to me tho, you hide it. you even talk shit about me when ppl ask you on your blog. WHY? in this past year, the person you've been the closest to online is ME. the person you always came back to is ME. so why do you do that? why aint i important enough for you so you tlak about me NICELY on your blog?
you loved kayleigh but you also say you loved me. but you never tried to keep me when i wanted to leave the way you did for her. you never wrote me a super long message to convince me to stay. you never talked about how bad you like me on your blog the way you did with her.
ive been there for you all these months. and you still talk shit about me. you still get pissed at me for little reasons. you still blame me for everything that happened between us. you still belittle that fucking relationship we had. you still ignore me when things dont go your way or when you talk to someone else. and if kayleigh comes back, youll still take her back and push me away.
its not gonna be a shock but Beth, you don't love me. and idk if you ever have actually. you never showed it to me. you never proved it to me. you won't let me in. and i'm exhausted. because i'm trying to get you to love me and it's useless.
and here i am, once again, justifying myself to you and trying to make you see the truth of what you and i have. and you wont even answer this msg. youll just tell yourself im an annoying bitch and ignore it.
[16/06/2014 12:30:42] Olivia Devost: have fun reading this.
[16/06/2014 12:35:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): there you go twisting my words around again. i'd date you if you didn't have a boyfriend. but right now? i wouldn't. i wouldn't DATE YOU RIGHT NOW. doesn't matter if you have a boyfriend or not. why do i gotta explain myself to you all the fucking time. it feels like my head is beibg banged against the fucking wall because you don't listen
[16/06/2014 12:35:49] Olivia Devost: why did you stick to the first part only?
[16/06/2014 12:36:04] Beth (✿◠‿◠): lmao
[16/06/2014 12:36:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because i'm still fuicking reading the message
[16/06/2014 12:36:16] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nevermind
[16/06/2014 12:36:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm not gonna explain myself to you anymore
[16/06/2014 12:36:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm literally over it
[16/06/2014 12:36:42] Olivia Devost: okay... dont read it. you dont have to.
[16/06/2014 12:36:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i read the message
[16/06/2014 12:37:15] Olivia Devost: okay.
[16/06/2014 12:38:03] Olivia Devost: well, im glad you know
[16/06/2014 12:39:55] Olivia Devost: so if youre over it im taking we stop talking?
[16/06/2014 12:40:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i guess so. i mean, it's impossible for you to my friend
[16/06/2014 12:40:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): so go ahead and stop talking
[16/06/2014 12:40:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): fucking so ridiculous.
[16/06/2014 12:40:59] Olivia Devost: its ridiculous? its ridiculous that ive stuck with you for a year and that you still talk shit about me on your blog when someone asks about me?
[16/06/2014 12:41:22] Olivia Devost: but some girl you've known for a month gets a bunch of praise on your blog?
[16/06/2014 12:41:34] Olivia Devost: a girl you wont even care for in 3 weeks?
[16/06/2014 12:41:46] Beth (✿◠‿◠): WHY ARE YOU SO OBSESSED WITH THE FACT THAT I POST SHIT ON MY BLOG ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE
[16/06/2014 12:41:48] Beth (✿◠‿◠): GOD DAMN WHO GIVES A FUCK
[16/06/2014 12:41:58] Olivia Devost: obviously, you give a fuck
[16/06/2014 12:42:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you're a 30 year old fucking woman almost 31 and that's what you care about
[16/06/2014 12:42:12] Beth (✿◠‿◠): get the fuck over it
[16/06/2014 12:42:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm done
[16/06/2014 12:42:27] Olivia Devost: yea. i care about you. and how you feel for me. and how you treat me. so ridiculous.
[16/06/2014 12:43:37] Olivia Devost: but no thats not all i care about. i just want to know why.
[16/06/2014 12:43:48] Olivia Devost: why you treat me like that. and why you always come back. i want to know.
[16/06/2014 12:44:16] Olivia Devost: you come back to me for a friendship? please.
[16/06/2014 12:44:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i come back because it's so easy to talk to you about what's going on
[16/06/2014 12:44:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i can act like myself around you
[16/06/2014 12:44:46] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i can be myself. i can look however the way i look and you don't care
[16/06/2014 12:44:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i care about your friendship.
[16/06/2014 12:45:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i do love you but you can't accept the fact that i just love you as a friend
[16/06/2014 12:45:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's always complicated with me
[16/06/2014 12:45:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): there's a bunch of hurdles standing in the way between us
[16/06/2014 12:45:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i wanna do what i wanna do
[16/06/2014 12:45:27] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you have other people
[16/06/2014 12:45:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): YOU have your boyfriend
[16/06/2014 12:45:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): I wanna be single, and flirt, and have my crushes.
[16/06/2014 12:45:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): It's not fair when you'd be fucking your boyfriend and I'd be here, not doing a damn thing
[16/06/2014 12:46:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): You should understand it from my point of view
[16/06/2014 12:46:27] Olivia Devost: i do understand. for real. i really do. but you dont love me anyway so idk why it matters.
[16/06/2014 12:46:51] Olivia Devost: if you loved me
[16/06/2014 12:46:56] Olivia Devost: and said you did. and acted like it.
[16/06/2014 12:47:08] Olivia Devost: and if i had a spot in your heart the way all these crushes do.
[16/06/2014 12:47:39] Olivia Devost: if youd say "i love you but right now i just wanna have fun nd shit but ill come back to you and be all yours at some point"... it would be different. but you dont because you dont love me.
[16/06/2014 12:47:45] Olivia Devost: so theres no point for me.
[16/06/2014 12:47:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): god
[16/06/2014 12:47:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): whatever
[16/06/2014 12:47:55] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[16/06/2014 12:48:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i don't mean anything, and our friendship doesn't mean anything
[16/06/2014 12:48:04] Beth (✿◠‿◠): then go
[16/06/2014 12:48:05] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just go
[16/06/2014 12:48:11] Beth (✿◠‿◠): stop fucking writing me then
[16/06/2014 12:48:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no point
[16/06/2014 12:48:15] Olivia Devost: thats not what i said
[16/06/2014 12:48:23] Olivia Devost: i said you dont LOVE me. you dont "lover" love me
[16/06/2014 12:48:54] Olivia Devost: and youll never be mine.
[16/06/2014 12:50:03] Olivia Devost: i didnt say you dont mean anything. i believe you when you say im your friend and that my friendship means something.
[16/06/2014 12:50:31] Olivia Devost: but you dont LOVE love me.
[16/06/2014 12:50:56] Olivia Devost: not even the way you feel for all your crushes. and even less the way you loved kayleigh.
[16/06/2014 12:52:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): can we just not talk about kayleigh
[16/06/2014 12:52:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and plus, i just can't flip my feelings on
[16/06/2014 12:52:26] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's always gonna be different with you
[16/06/2014 12:52:32] Olivia Devost: im not asking you to flip your feelings on. i know you cant. but i cant either.
[16/06/2014 12:52:56] Olivia Devost: different as in im your friend, i love you, but you'll never have enough feelings for me to date me.
[16/06/2014 12:53:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[16/06/2014 12:53:10] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it just sucks
[16/06/2014 12:53:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because it's not enough
[16/06/2014 12:53:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and it's not enough for me to be in your life
[16/06/2014 12:53:20] Beth (✿◠‿◠): what a shame
[16/06/2014 12:53:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): anyway. we're done. you made up your mind
[16/06/2014 12:53:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): imma go take a shower
[16/06/2014 12:53:38] Beth (✿◠‿◠): sorry for wanting to be your friend
[16/06/2014 12:53:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): oh well
[16/06/2014 12:53:41] Olivia Devost: no... YOU made up your mind.
[16/06/2014 12:53:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): bye
[16/06/2014 12:53:49] Olivia Devost: sorry for wanting to be your girlfriend.
[16/06/2014 12:53:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no you made up yours lmao
[16/06/2014 12:54:12] Olivia Devost: sorry i love you too much.
[16/06/2014 12:55:13] Olivia Devost: i was almost over you, you know.
[16/06/2014 12:56:03] Olivia Devost: and no, you made up your mind. every time you say "lmao" at me or say crap about me on your blog or start ignoring me... you make up your mind about me
[16/06/2014 12:56:58] Olivia Devost: and alright, you dont seem to even care so yea.
[16/06/2014 12:57:29] Olivia Devost: trust me, if i had my way id go back in time and make sure i never fall for you. but i cant.
[16/06/2014 12:57:49] Olivia Devost: lol seems like i like being treated like crap.
[16/06/2014 12:57:56] Olivia Devost: im gonna miss you like crazy.
[16/06/2014 12:58:02] Olivia Devost: bye Beth (heart)
[16/06/2014 15:46:14] Olivia Devost: Know what... let ME be bipolar for once.. im fucking pissed at you. Seriously Beth fuck you. Dont fucking come back EVER. Stay with whoever you like and since it seems like you dont care about losing me... dont fucking comr back. Stay with those kids and forget i fucking exist. I cant believe im still doing this after a whoke fucking year if having my heart broken. Next time you THINK you miss me, remember you only miss how i make you feel. Not the person i am. And dont fucking come back. I bet the vids you made were for her anyway. Lol. Im so stupid to ever believe you. I was wrong i wont miss you. Bye.
[16/06/2014 17:56:31] Olivia Devost: lol you erased me? and you call me immature? hilarious.
[16/06/2014 12:09:52] Olivia Devost: Because i reread our convo and seriously it makes no sense. You keep contradicting yourself and i want the truth.
[16/06/2014 12:30:23] Olivia Devost: whatever. ill just send it to you and if you havent talked to me by tomorrow, i just wont bother anymore. here it is:
[16/06/2014 12:30:35] Olivia Devost: i dont even know why you come back to me. for a friendship? please, it makes no sense. you dont need me as a friend, you don't need me at all. last night you said if i didnt have a boyfriend and had asked if you'd date me you would have said "yes of course" but 10 mins later i asked you if youd ever date me and you said "no, at least not now". how does that even make sense anyway?
you say a lot of bullshit Beth and the worse is... i don't think you do it on purpose. you just dont know how to keep me close without me loving you and i'm telling you. it will not happen. you and i being only friends forever? forget it now. i told you a million times. every time you come back to me i end up thinking i can do it but no, i cant.
you say i dirty talk with many persons and that i have crushes and ppl on the side and you don't believe me when i say i dont. truth is, you dont give a fuck if i do crush on other ppl or not. you dont care who i dirty talk with. so why do you even bring it up?
you've had plenty of crushes since you and i started talking (granted, so did i, but yea).. you talked about them on your blog. you showed everyone you have feelings for them. when it comes to me tho, you hide it. you even talk shit about me when ppl ask you on your blog. WHY? in this past year, the person you've been the closest to online is ME. the person you always came back to is ME. so why do you do that? why aint i important enough for you so you tlak about me NICELY on your blog?
you loved kayleigh but you also say you loved me. but you never tried to keep me when i wanted to leave the way you did for her. you never wrote me a super long message to convince me to stay. you never talked about how bad you like me on your blog the way you did with her.
ive been there for you all these months. and you still talk shit about me. you still get pissed at me for little reasons. you still blame me for everything that happened between us. you still belittle that fucking relationship we had. you still ignore me when things dont go your way or when you talk to someone else. and if kayleigh comes back, youll still take her back and push me away.
its not gonna be a shock but Beth, you don't love me. and idk if you ever have actually. you never showed it to me. you never proved it to me. you won't let me in. and i'm exhausted. because i'm trying to get you to love me and it's useless.
and here i am, once again, justifying myself to you and trying to make you see the truth of what you and i have. and you wont even answer this msg. youll just tell yourself im an annoying bitch and ignore it.
[16/06/2014 12:30:42] Olivia Devost: have fun reading this.
[16/06/2014 12:35:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): there you go twisting my words around again. i'd date you if you didn't have a boyfriend. but right now? i wouldn't. i wouldn't DATE YOU RIGHT NOW. doesn't matter if you have a boyfriend or not. why do i gotta explain myself to you all the fucking time. it feels like my head is beibg banged against the fucking wall because you don't listen
[16/06/2014 12:35:49] Olivia Devost: why did you stick to the first part only?
[16/06/2014 12:36:04] Beth (✿◠‿◠): lmao
[16/06/2014 12:36:14] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because i'm still fuicking reading the message
[16/06/2014 12:36:16] Beth (✿◠‿◠): nevermind
[16/06/2014 12:36:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm not gonna explain myself to you anymore
[16/06/2014 12:36:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm literally over it
[16/06/2014 12:36:42] Olivia Devost: okay... dont read it. you dont have to.
[16/06/2014 12:36:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i read the message
[16/06/2014 12:37:15] Olivia Devost: okay.
[16/06/2014 12:38:03] Olivia Devost: well, im glad you know
[16/06/2014 12:39:55] Olivia Devost: so if youre over it im taking we stop talking?
[16/06/2014 12:40:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i guess so. i mean, it's impossible for you to my friend
[16/06/2014 12:40:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): so go ahead and stop talking
[16/06/2014 12:40:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): fucking so ridiculous.
[16/06/2014 12:40:59] Olivia Devost: its ridiculous? its ridiculous that ive stuck with you for a year and that you still talk shit about me on your blog when someone asks about me?
[16/06/2014 12:41:22] Olivia Devost: but some girl you've known for a month gets a bunch of praise on your blog?
[16/06/2014 12:41:34] Olivia Devost: a girl you wont even care for in 3 weeks?
[16/06/2014 12:41:46] Beth (✿◠‿◠): WHY ARE YOU SO OBSESSED WITH THE FACT THAT I POST SHIT ON MY BLOG ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE
[16/06/2014 12:41:48] Beth (✿◠‿◠): GOD DAMN WHO GIVES A FUCK
[16/06/2014 12:41:58] Olivia Devost: obviously, you give a fuck
[16/06/2014 12:42:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you're a 30 year old fucking woman almost 31 and that's what you care about
[16/06/2014 12:42:12] Beth (✿◠‿◠): get the fuck over it
[16/06/2014 12:42:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm done
[16/06/2014 12:42:27] Olivia Devost: yea. i care about you. and how you feel for me. and how you treat me. so ridiculous.
[16/06/2014 12:43:37] Olivia Devost: but no thats not all i care about. i just want to know why.
[16/06/2014 12:43:48] Olivia Devost: why you treat me like that. and why you always come back. i want to know.
[16/06/2014 12:44:16] Olivia Devost: you come back to me for a friendship? please.
[16/06/2014 12:44:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i come back because it's so easy to talk to you about what's going on
[16/06/2014 12:44:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i can act like myself around you
[16/06/2014 12:44:46] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i can be myself. i can look however the way i look and you don't care
[16/06/2014 12:44:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i care about your friendship.
[16/06/2014 12:45:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i do love you but you can't accept the fact that i just love you as a friend
[16/06/2014 12:45:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's always complicated with me
[16/06/2014 12:45:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): there's a bunch of hurdles standing in the way between us
[16/06/2014 12:45:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i wanna do what i wanna do
[16/06/2014 12:45:27] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you have other people
[16/06/2014 12:45:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): YOU have your boyfriend
[16/06/2014 12:45:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): I wanna be single, and flirt, and have my crushes.
[16/06/2014 12:45:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): It's not fair when you'd be fucking your boyfriend and I'd be here, not doing a damn thing
[16/06/2014 12:46:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): You should understand it from my point of view
[16/06/2014 12:46:27] Olivia Devost: i do understand. for real. i really do. but you dont love me anyway so idk why it matters.
[16/06/2014 12:46:51] Olivia Devost: if you loved me
[16/06/2014 12:46:56] Olivia Devost: and said you did. and acted like it.
[16/06/2014 12:47:08] Olivia Devost: and if i had a spot in your heart the way all these crushes do.
[16/06/2014 12:47:39] Olivia Devost: if youd say "i love you but right now i just wanna have fun nd shit but ill come back to you and be all yours at some point"... it would be different. but you dont because you dont love me.
[16/06/2014 12:47:45] Olivia Devost: so theres no point for me.
[16/06/2014 12:47:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): god
[16/06/2014 12:47:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): whatever
[16/06/2014 12:47:55] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[16/06/2014 12:48:03] Beth (✿◠‿◠): if i don't mean anything, and our friendship doesn't mean anything
[16/06/2014 12:48:04] Beth (✿◠‿◠): then go
[16/06/2014 12:48:05] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just go
[16/06/2014 12:48:11] Beth (✿◠‿◠): stop fucking writing me then
[16/06/2014 12:48:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no point
[16/06/2014 12:48:15] Olivia Devost: thats not what i said
[16/06/2014 12:48:23] Olivia Devost: i said you dont LOVE me. you dont "lover" love me
[16/06/2014 12:48:54] Olivia Devost: and youll never be mine.
[16/06/2014 12:50:03] Olivia Devost: i didnt say you dont mean anything. i believe you when you say im your friend and that my friendship means something.
[16/06/2014 12:50:31] Olivia Devost: but you dont LOVE love me.
[16/06/2014 12:50:56] Olivia Devost: not even the way you feel for all your crushes. and even less the way you loved kayleigh.
[16/06/2014 12:52:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): can we just not talk about kayleigh
[16/06/2014 12:52:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and plus, i just can't flip my feelings on
[16/06/2014 12:52:26] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's always gonna be different with you
[16/06/2014 12:52:32] Olivia Devost: im not asking you to flip your feelings on. i know you cant. but i cant either.
[16/06/2014 12:52:56] Olivia Devost: different as in im your friend, i love you, but you'll never have enough feelings for me to date me.
[16/06/2014 12:53:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[16/06/2014 12:53:10] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it just sucks
[16/06/2014 12:53:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): because it's not enough
[16/06/2014 12:53:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and it's not enough for me to be in your life
[16/06/2014 12:53:20] Beth (✿◠‿◠): what a shame
[16/06/2014 12:53:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): anyway. we're done. you made up your mind
[16/06/2014 12:53:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): imma go take a shower
[16/06/2014 12:53:38] Beth (✿◠‿◠): sorry for wanting to be your friend
[16/06/2014 12:53:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): oh well
[16/06/2014 12:53:41] Olivia Devost: no... YOU made up your mind.
[16/06/2014 12:53:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): bye
[16/06/2014 12:53:49] Olivia Devost: sorry for wanting to be your girlfriend.
[16/06/2014 12:53:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no you made up yours lmao
[16/06/2014 12:54:12] Olivia Devost: sorry i love you too much.
[16/06/2014 12:55:13] Olivia Devost: i was almost over you, you know.
[16/06/2014 12:56:03] Olivia Devost: and no, you made up your mind. every time you say "lmao" at me or say crap about me on your blog or start ignoring me... you make up your mind about me
[16/06/2014 12:56:58] Olivia Devost: and alright, you dont seem to even care so yea.
[16/06/2014 12:57:29] Olivia Devost: trust me, if i had my way id go back in time and make sure i never fall for you. but i cant.
[16/06/2014 12:57:49] Olivia Devost: lol seems like i like being treated like crap.
[16/06/2014 12:57:56] Olivia Devost: im gonna miss you like crazy.
[16/06/2014 12:58:02] Olivia Devost: bye Beth (heart)
[16/06/2014 15:46:14] Olivia Devost: Know what... let ME be bipolar for once.. im fucking pissed at you. Seriously Beth fuck you. Dont fucking come back EVER. Stay with whoever you like and since it seems like you dont care about losing me... dont fucking comr back. Stay with those kids and forget i fucking exist. I cant believe im still doing this after a whoke fucking year if having my heart broken. Next time you THINK you miss me, remember you only miss how i make you feel. Not the person i am. And dont fucking come back. I bet the vids you made were for her anyway. Lol. Im so stupid to ever believe you. I was wrong i wont miss you. Bye.
[16/06/2014 17:56:31] Olivia Devost: lol you erased me? and you call me immature? hilarious.
