Post by imanadmitduh on Apr 18, 2014 12:25:22 GMT -5
[15/04/2014 01:11:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): helloo
[15/04/2014 01:11:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): are you okay?
[15/04/2014 01:11:44] Olivia Devost: heyy
[15/04/2014 01:11:51] Olivia Devost: yea im alright. you?
[15/04/2014 01:12:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm gooood
[15/04/2014 01:12:18] Olivia Devost: sweet. im sorry i keep messaging you i just really miss you
[15/04/2014 01:12:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): well
[15/04/2014 01:12:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm here
[15/04/2014 01:13:00] Olivia Devost: are you in the mood to chat?
[15/04/2014 01:13:24] Olivia Devost: you seem like youre in a "i want to spend some time alone" period
[15/04/2014 01:13:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): olivia
[15/04/2014 01:13:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i gotta tell you something
[15/04/2014 01:13:45] Beth (✿◠‿◠): are you getting attached again>
[15/04/2014 01:13:46] Olivia Devost: oh
[15/04/2014 01:13:57] Olivia Devost: what do you wanna tell me
[15/04/2014 01:14:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just asked ya
[15/04/2014 01:14:21] Olivia Devost: oh
[15/04/2014 01:14:36] Olivia Devost: well idk what you mean by "again". i love you, you know that
[15/04/2014 01:14:50] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i know
[15/04/2014 01:15:01] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but you seem to get even more attached.
[15/04/2014 01:15:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i thought we were just gonna be friends?
[15/04/2014 01:15:28] Olivia Devost: didnt you say that you love me?
[15/04/2014 01:15:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i do but ummm just as friends?
[15/04/2014 01:15:54] Olivia Devost: are you serious?
[15/04/2014 01:16:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yes
[15/04/2014 01:16:05] Olivia Devost: omg lol seriously?
[15/04/2014 01:16:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yes?
[15/04/2014 01:16:17] Olivia Devost: so friday was just a big 5 hours of bullshit?
[15/04/2014 01:17:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i meant what i said but i didn't say anything about being a relationship with yoiu
[15/04/2014 01:17:10] Olivia Devost: and im not talking about dating you?
[15/04/2014 01:17:20] Olivia Devost: but now you say you love me as a friend?
[15/04/2014 01:17:28] Olivia Devost: so whats the truth? this? or what you said friday?
[15/04/2014 01:17:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): this and what i said on friday. what did i say on friday?
[15/04/2014 01:17:48] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you YEAH but as a friend
[15/04/2014 01:17:50] Beth (✿◠‿◠): \i mean
[15/04/2014 01:17:50] Olivia Devost: oh no. please dont
[15/04/2014 01:17:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): do i gotta say
[15/04/2014 01:17:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): "i love you" but as a friend
[15/04/2014 01:17:59] Beth (✿◠‿◠): when i do?
[15/04/2014 01:18:03] Olivia Devost: i asked you "you really love me. really really love me?"
[15/04/2014 01:18:06] Olivia Devost: you said yes
[15/04/2014 01:18:14] Olivia Devost: dont bullshit me Beth. please dont
[15/04/2014 01:18:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i honestly don't even remember
[15/04/2014 01:18:20] Olivia Devost: oh please
[15/04/2014 01:18:29] Olivia Devost: why do you do that?
[15/04/2014 01:18:44] Olivia Devost: why do you do that every time we end up getting closer?
[15/04/2014 01:18:55] Olivia Devost: why are you so fucking scared?
[15/04/2014 01:18:57] Olivia Devost: wtf?
[15/04/2014 01:19:38] Olivia Devost: if you like someone else, fine. but dont bullshit me and say you meant all those "i love you"'s and "I miss you"'s as friends
[15/04/2014 01:19:40] Olivia Devost: dont
[15/04/2014 01:21:05] Olivia Devost: and dont ignore me
[15/04/2014 01:21:10] Olivia Devost: were gonna sort things out tonight
[15/04/2014 01:21:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i honestly don't feel like it
[15/04/2014 01:21:54] Olivia Devost: you werent drunk anymore when you said you love me.
[15/04/2014 01:21:59] Olivia Devost: oh fuck it!
[15/04/2014 01:22:04] Olivia Devost: if you have something to say, say it
[15/04/2014 01:22:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i just haven't been in the mood to talk to you
[15/04/2014 01:22:17] Olivia Devost: ok so you dont want to talk to me
[15/04/2014 01:22:20] Olivia Devost: i told you this would happen
[15/04/2014 01:22:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you were really fun last week
[15/04/2014 01:22:37] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but now you keep messaging me all the god damn time
[15/04/2014 01:22:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): like give it a fucking rest
[15/04/2014 01:22:53] Olivia Devost: i said we had about 3 days left to talk. you said no. i said thats what you do. you talk to me a week. and then you stop talking to me for two weeks. you said you wouldnt stop talking to me. and you promised.
[15/04/2014 01:22:59] Olivia Devost: oh for fucks sake!
[15/04/2014 01:23:01] Olivia Devost: are you fucking serious?
[15/04/2014 01:23:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yep
[15/04/2014 01:23:11] Olivia Devost: of course, im getting too close. YOU are getting too close.
[15/04/2014 01:23:22] Olivia Devost: and being close to me fucking scares you. then fine.
[15/04/2014 01:23:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no
[15/04/2014 01:23:32] Olivia Devost: why do you come back to me Beth?
[15/04/2014 01:23:34] Olivia Devost: why?
[15/04/2014 01:23:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it doesn't scare me
[15/04/2014 01:23:45] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's just you're on my ass all the time
[15/04/2014 01:23:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): seriously
[15/04/2014 01:23:48] Olivia Devost: ok, no then. you dont love me. youve lied to me all along.
[15/04/2014 01:23:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you were messaging me anonstop
[15/04/2014 01:23:53] Olivia Devost: on your ass?
[15/04/2014 01:23:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and you messaged me at 7 this morning
[15/04/2014 01:24:02] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and that pissed me off
[15/04/2014 01:24:03] Olivia Devost: WHAT???
[15/04/2014 01:24:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just leave it the fuck be
[15/04/2014 01:24:09] Olivia Devost: i didnt send you ONE FUCKING MSG ON TUMBLR
[15/04/2014 01:24:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): ON HERE
[15/04/2014 01:24:17] Olivia Devost: i never go to your blog!
[15/04/2014 01:24:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): jesus christ
[15/04/2014 01:24:28] Olivia Devost: oh fuck
[15/04/2014 01:24:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): see you're not even listening to what i'm saying
[15/04/2014 01:24:33] Olivia Devost: ok
[15/04/2014 01:24:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you're so impossible
[15/04/2014 01:24:35] Olivia Devost: whatever
[15/04/2014 01:24:41] Olivia Devost: i messaged you at 7 cuz thats the time i wake up
[15/04/2014 01:24:52] Olivia Devost: see? were fighting again
[15/04/2014 01:25:03] Olivia Devost: and all that nice week? down the drain. for what? no reason at all.
[15/04/2014 01:25:16] Olivia Devost: because you decided that this week, im not fun. im boring.
[15/04/2014 01:25:25] Olivia Devost: or becuase you like someone else or whatever the reason you found this week.
[15/04/2014 01:25:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): HOLY FUCKING SHIT
[15/04/2014 01:25:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i did not say that
[15/04/2014 01:25:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm just saying you need to quit messaging me all the god damn time
[15/04/2014 01:25:44] Olivia Devost: then what? bcause i dont get you!
[15/04/2014 01:26:03] Olivia Devost: so basically, you want me to be there when you want to. and otherwise, i need to stay away.
[15/04/2014 01:26:38] Olivia Devost: and worse, now you say you dont even love me. you basically admit that you bullshitted me. why???
[15/04/2014 01:28:45] Olivia Devost: ok. tell me you dont love me and im out forever. but if you do, Beth, dont come back. because i love you. i fucking love you and you know that. and you need to stop lying to me.
[15/04/2014 01:30:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you. i do.
[15/04/2014 01:30:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but you honestly need to give me a fucking break
[15/04/2014 01:30:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just stop messaging me
[15/04/2014 01:30:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): PLEASE
[15/04/2014 01:30:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): all the time
[15/04/2014 01:30:38] Olivia Devost: as a friend or for real?
[15/04/2014 01:31:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just as a friend. but more than a friend. it's weird.
[15/04/2014 01:31:19] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but like a girlfriend? no
[15/04/2014 01:31:26] Olivia Devost: oh god
[15/04/2014 01:31:52] Olivia Devost: i hate to be lied to. so much. do you even know how fucing bad it hurts?
[15/04/2014 01:32:20] Olivia Devost: all the fucking bullshit you told me on friday and sat.
[15/04/2014 01:32:35] Olivia Devost: this is like someone fucing stabbed me in the back.
[15/04/2014 01:33:21] Olivia Devost: you wanna know everything you said on friday? because i can fucking repeat you everything.
[15/04/2014 01:34:06] Olivia Devost: i cant believe why i always fall for that. lol im definitely an idiot.
[15/04/2014 01:34:09] Olivia Devost: you have a new crush?
[15/04/2014 01:34:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no
[15/04/2014 01:34:37] Olivia Devost: alright then its just worse.
[15/04/2014 01:35:06] Olivia Devost: its not that youre not interested in th shit you said friday. you know the shit you said friday. you know im right.
[15/04/2014 01:35:25] Olivia Devost: honestly? i wasnt expecting anything from you. we chatted. we watched a movie. it was all nice. i didnt bother you now did i?
[15/04/2014 01:35:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): seriously olivia
[15/04/2014 01:35:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's not that big of a deal
[15/04/2014 01:35:49] Olivia Devost: then we talk on friday and you say this shit to me and for some unknown reason i believe you because i asked over and over again. even sat you messaged me and shit.
[15/04/2014 01:35:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i just don't want you to stop messaging me all the time
[15/04/2014 01:35:54] Olivia Devost: and now im too clingy
[15/04/2014 01:36:24] Olivia Devost: but what for? i dont want you to bullshit me anymore. okay? how would you feel if someone you fucking love would bullshit you?
[15/04/2014 01:37:27] Olivia Devost: you remember everything you said. the date thing. all the "i love you"'s. you remember it. you may regret it now, but you remember.
[15/04/2014 01:37:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no i don't remember
[15/04/2014 01:37:40] Olivia Devost: dont do that to me EVER AGAIN
[15/04/2014 01:37:44] Olivia Devost: stop! please STOP
[15/04/2014 01:37:53] Olivia Devost: you remember because we talked about it on sat
[15/04/2014 01:38:17] Olivia Devost: or were you drunk in the middle of the afternoon too?
[15/04/2014 01:41:18] Olivia Devost: i won't msg you anymore Beth. dont worry.
[15/04/2014 01:43:43] Olivia Devost: my heart has been broken enough. lol the worst is, i didnt expect anything. and i wasnt ever going to tell you that i love you. and you just... act like you love me. you talk about dates. you talk about real love. and i fucking believe it because im stupid. and now, because i believed you, youre pissed at me because im clingy.
[15/04/2014 01:43:46] Olivia Devost: fuck my life, seriously.
[15/04/2014 01:44:57] Olivia Devost: you know what you should do? go back up that chat. re-read. even the parts where its only me, typing. you'll see where you made the mistakes.
[15/04/2014 01:45:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): why are you so mad
[15/04/2014 01:45:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): jesus christ
[15/04/2014 01:45:19] Olivia Devost: because i love you!
[15/04/2014 01:45:20] Beth (✿◠‿◠): get a fucking grip
[15/04/2014 01:45:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[15/04/2014 01:45:23] Olivia Devost: and i believed you!
[15/04/2014 01:45:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you too
[15/04/2014 01:45:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but you fucking know that we just wanted to be friends
[15/04/2014 01:46:47] Olivia Devost: YES! but when we talked i just... i didnt think we'd date ok. my heart never allowed me to go until there because i know you. but fuck. dont tell me you dont love me "like a girlfriend". Beth im pissed because no matter what you say, you did make me believe. fuck you said you'd take me on a freaking fucking date
[15/04/2014 01:47:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i would though! of course i would take you out on a date
[15/04/2014 01:47:45] Beth (✿◠‿◠): olivia
[15/04/2014 01:48:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you knbow how hard it is for me to step into something big like a relationship
[15/04/2014 01:48:16] Olivia Devost: i know! im not asking you to. i never would ask you that you know that!
[15/04/2014 01:48:23] Olivia Devost: well ok, i did once.
[15/04/2014 01:48:28] Olivia Devost: but i was desperate.
[15/04/2014 01:48:31] Olivia Devost: right now im not desperate
[15/04/2014 01:48:35] Olivia Devost: lol not yet
[15/04/2014 01:48:43] Olivia Devost: seriously tho. i know we wont date.
[15/04/2014 01:48:50] Olivia Devost: at least not for many many years
[15/04/2014 01:48:58] Olivia Devost: but whenever we get close you run away. why?
[15/04/2014 01:53:26] Olivia Devost: just.. dont push me away. i know its hard for you to believe the feelings i have for you and everything id do for you but... do you think id still be there after 9 months if i didnt really honestly, truly loved you with all m heart? id be long gone ok.
[15/04/2014 01:57:20] Olivia Devost: sigh. you want me to stop loving you Beth? forget it. it wont happen.
[15/04/2014 01:57:57] Olivia Devost: if you want me to stay away from you, i can do that
[15/04/2014 01:58:57] Olivia Devost: and if you honestly dont love me (because loving "as a friend" is fucking bullsit. if thats the only way you love me just dont say you love me at all)... then idk.
[15/04/2014 01:59:23] Olivia Devost: we can go back to how we were sunday or monday when we watched titanic together
[15/04/2014 01:59:39] Olivia Devost: but choose.
[15/04/2014 02:01:18] Olivia Devost: pick and stick to it. just know that i had fun every single time we talked. and on friday too.
[15/04/2014 02:03:03] Olivia Devost: or ignore me. that works too.
[15/04/2014 02:21:53] Olivia Devost: btw you completely confused me about what your "i love you" means so you should be clearer. so whenever youre ready to let me know what you decided, message me. you probably will never message me again but whatever. sigh. good night. and yes, i love you.
[17/04/2014 16:53:43] Olivia Devost: when youre done ignoring me we can make things clear and get this over with shall we. so, as usual, we can stop talking and i can try to get over you.
[15/04/2014 01:11:35] Beth (✿◠‿◠): are you okay?
[15/04/2014 01:11:44] Olivia Devost: heyy
[15/04/2014 01:11:51] Olivia Devost: yea im alright. you?
[15/04/2014 01:12:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm gooood
[15/04/2014 01:12:18] Olivia Devost: sweet. im sorry i keep messaging you i just really miss you
[15/04/2014 01:12:42] Beth (✿◠‿◠): well
[15/04/2014 01:12:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm here
[15/04/2014 01:13:00] Olivia Devost: are you in the mood to chat?
[15/04/2014 01:13:24] Olivia Devost: you seem like youre in a "i want to spend some time alone" period
[15/04/2014 01:13:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): olivia
[15/04/2014 01:13:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i gotta tell you something
[15/04/2014 01:13:45] Beth (✿◠‿◠): are you getting attached again>
[15/04/2014 01:13:46] Olivia Devost: oh
[15/04/2014 01:13:57] Olivia Devost: what do you wanna tell me
[15/04/2014 01:14:18] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just asked ya
[15/04/2014 01:14:21] Olivia Devost: oh
[15/04/2014 01:14:36] Olivia Devost: well idk what you mean by "again". i love you, you know that
[15/04/2014 01:14:50] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i know
[15/04/2014 01:15:01] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but you seem to get even more attached.
[15/04/2014 01:15:08] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i thought we were just gonna be friends?
[15/04/2014 01:15:28] Olivia Devost: didnt you say that you love me?
[15/04/2014 01:15:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i do but ummm just as friends?
[15/04/2014 01:15:54] Olivia Devost: are you serious?
[15/04/2014 01:16:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yes
[15/04/2014 01:16:05] Olivia Devost: omg lol seriously?
[15/04/2014 01:16:09] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yes?
[15/04/2014 01:16:17] Olivia Devost: so friday was just a big 5 hours of bullshit?
[15/04/2014 01:17:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i meant what i said but i didn't say anything about being a relationship with yoiu
[15/04/2014 01:17:10] Olivia Devost: and im not talking about dating you?
[15/04/2014 01:17:20] Olivia Devost: but now you say you love me as a friend?
[15/04/2014 01:17:28] Olivia Devost: so whats the truth? this? or what you said friday?
[15/04/2014 01:17:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): this and what i said on friday. what did i say on friday?
[15/04/2014 01:17:48] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you YEAH but as a friend
[15/04/2014 01:17:50] Beth (✿◠‿◠): \i mean
[15/04/2014 01:17:50] Olivia Devost: oh no. please dont
[15/04/2014 01:17:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): do i gotta say
[15/04/2014 01:17:57] Beth (✿◠‿◠): "i love you" but as a friend
[15/04/2014 01:17:59] Beth (✿◠‿◠): when i do?
[15/04/2014 01:18:03] Olivia Devost: i asked you "you really love me. really really love me?"
[15/04/2014 01:18:06] Olivia Devost: you said yes
[15/04/2014 01:18:14] Olivia Devost: dont bullshit me Beth. please dont
[15/04/2014 01:18:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i honestly don't even remember
[15/04/2014 01:18:20] Olivia Devost: oh please
[15/04/2014 01:18:29] Olivia Devost: why do you do that?
[15/04/2014 01:18:44] Olivia Devost: why do you do that every time we end up getting closer?
[15/04/2014 01:18:55] Olivia Devost: why are you so fucking scared?
[15/04/2014 01:18:57] Olivia Devost: wtf?
[15/04/2014 01:19:38] Olivia Devost: if you like someone else, fine. but dont bullshit me and say you meant all those "i love you"'s and "I miss you"'s as friends
[15/04/2014 01:19:40] Olivia Devost: dont
[15/04/2014 01:21:05] Olivia Devost: and dont ignore me
[15/04/2014 01:21:10] Olivia Devost: were gonna sort things out tonight
[15/04/2014 01:21:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i honestly don't feel like it
[15/04/2014 01:21:54] Olivia Devost: you werent drunk anymore when you said you love me.
[15/04/2014 01:21:59] Olivia Devost: oh fuck it!
[15/04/2014 01:22:04] Olivia Devost: if you have something to say, say it
[15/04/2014 01:22:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i just haven't been in the mood to talk to you
[15/04/2014 01:22:17] Olivia Devost: ok so you dont want to talk to me
[15/04/2014 01:22:20] Olivia Devost: i told you this would happen
[15/04/2014 01:22:25] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you were really fun last week
[15/04/2014 01:22:37] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but now you keep messaging me all the god damn time
[15/04/2014 01:22:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): like give it a fucking rest
[15/04/2014 01:22:53] Olivia Devost: i said we had about 3 days left to talk. you said no. i said thats what you do. you talk to me a week. and then you stop talking to me for two weeks. you said you wouldnt stop talking to me. and you promised.
[15/04/2014 01:22:59] Olivia Devost: oh for fucks sake!
[15/04/2014 01:23:01] Olivia Devost: are you fucking serious?
[15/04/2014 01:23:06] Beth (✿◠‿◠): yep
[15/04/2014 01:23:11] Olivia Devost: of course, im getting too close. YOU are getting too close.
[15/04/2014 01:23:22] Olivia Devost: and being close to me fucking scares you. then fine.
[15/04/2014 01:23:31] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no
[15/04/2014 01:23:32] Olivia Devost: why do you come back to me Beth?
[15/04/2014 01:23:34] Olivia Devost: why?
[15/04/2014 01:23:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it doesn't scare me
[15/04/2014 01:23:45] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's just you're on my ass all the time
[15/04/2014 01:23:47] Beth (✿◠‿◠): seriously
[15/04/2014 01:23:48] Olivia Devost: ok, no then. you dont love me. youve lied to me all along.
[15/04/2014 01:23:52] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you were messaging me anonstop
[15/04/2014 01:23:53] Olivia Devost: on your ass?
[15/04/2014 01:23:58] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and you messaged me at 7 this morning
[15/04/2014 01:24:02] Beth (✿◠‿◠): and that pissed me off
[15/04/2014 01:24:03] Olivia Devost: WHAT???
[15/04/2014 01:24:07] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just leave it the fuck be
[15/04/2014 01:24:09] Olivia Devost: i didnt send you ONE FUCKING MSG ON TUMBLR
[15/04/2014 01:24:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): ON HERE
[15/04/2014 01:24:17] Olivia Devost: i never go to your blog!
[15/04/2014 01:24:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): jesus christ
[15/04/2014 01:24:28] Olivia Devost: oh fuck
[15/04/2014 01:24:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): see you're not even listening to what i'm saying
[15/04/2014 01:24:33] Olivia Devost: ok
[15/04/2014 01:24:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you're so impossible
[15/04/2014 01:24:35] Olivia Devost: whatever
[15/04/2014 01:24:41] Olivia Devost: i messaged you at 7 cuz thats the time i wake up
[15/04/2014 01:24:52] Olivia Devost: see? were fighting again
[15/04/2014 01:25:03] Olivia Devost: and all that nice week? down the drain. for what? no reason at all.
[15/04/2014 01:25:16] Olivia Devost: because you decided that this week, im not fun. im boring.
[15/04/2014 01:25:25] Olivia Devost: or becuase you like someone else or whatever the reason you found this week.
[15/04/2014 01:25:29] Beth (✿◠‿◠): HOLY FUCKING SHIT
[15/04/2014 01:25:32] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i did not say that
[15/04/2014 01:25:41] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i'm just saying you need to quit messaging me all the god damn time
[15/04/2014 01:25:44] Olivia Devost: then what?
bcause i dont get you![15/04/2014 01:26:03] Olivia Devost: so basically, you want me to be there when you want to. and otherwise, i need to stay away.
[15/04/2014 01:26:38] Olivia Devost: and worse, now you say you dont even love me. you basically admit that you bullshitted me. why???
[15/04/2014 01:28:45] Olivia Devost: ok. tell me you dont love me and im out forever. but if you do, Beth, dont come back. because i love you. i fucking love you and you know that. and you need to stop lying to me.
[15/04/2014 01:30:22] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you. i do.
[15/04/2014 01:30:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but you honestly need to give me a fucking break
[15/04/2014 01:30:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just stop messaging me
[15/04/2014 01:30:33] Beth (✿◠‿◠): PLEASE
[15/04/2014 01:30:36] Beth (✿◠‿◠): all the time
[15/04/2014 01:30:38] Olivia Devost: as a friend or for real?
[15/04/2014 01:31:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): just as a friend. but more than a friend. it's weird.
[15/04/2014 01:31:19] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but like a girlfriend? no
[15/04/2014 01:31:26] Olivia Devost: oh god
[15/04/2014 01:31:52] Olivia Devost: i hate to be lied to. so much. do you even know how fucing bad it hurts?
[15/04/2014 01:32:20] Olivia Devost: all the fucking bullshit you told me on friday and sat.
[15/04/2014 01:32:35] Olivia Devost: this is like someone fucing stabbed me in the back.
[15/04/2014 01:33:21] Olivia Devost: you wanna know everything you said on friday? because i can fucking repeat you everything.
[15/04/2014 01:34:06] Olivia Devost: i cant believe why i always fall for that. lol im definitely an idiot.
[15/04/2014 01:34:09] Olivia Devost: you have a new crush?
[15/04/2014 01:34:15] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no
[15/04/2014 01:34:37] Olivia Devost: alright then its just worse.
[15/04/2014 01:35:06] Olivia Devost: its not that youre not interested in th shit you said friday. you know the shit you said friday. you know im right.
[15/04/2014 01:35:25] Olivia Devost: honestly? i wasnt expecting anything from you. we chatted. we watched a movie. it was all nice. i didnt bother you now did i?
[15/04/2014 01:35:40] Beth (✿◠‿◠): seriously olivia
[15/04/2014 01:35:44] Beth (✿◠‿◠): it's not that big of a deal
[15/04/2014 01:35:49] Olivia Devost: then we talk on friday and you say this shit to me and for some unknown reason i believe you because i asked over and over again. even sat you messaged me and shit.
[15/04/2014 01:35:54] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i just don't want you to stop messaging me all the time
[15/04/2014 01:35:54] Olivia Devost: and now im too clingy
[15/04/2014 01:36:24] Olivia Devost: but what for? i dont want you to bullshit me anymore. okay? how would you feel if someone you fucking love would bullshit you?
[15/04/2014 01:37:27] Olivia Devost: you remember everything you said. the date thing. all the "i love you"'s. you remember it. you may regret it now, but you remember.
[15/04/2014 01:37:39] Beth (✿◠‿◠): no i don't remember
[15/04/2014 01:37:40] Olivia Devost: dont do that to me EVER AGAIN
[15/04/2014 01:37:44] Olivia Devost: stop! please STOP
[15/04/2014 01:37:53] Olivia Devost: you remember because we talked about it on sat
[15/04/2014 01:38:17] Olivia Devost: or were you drunk in the middle of the afternoon too?
[15/04/2014 01:41:18] Olivia Devost: i won't msg you anymore Beth. dont worry.
[15/04/2014 01:43:43] Olivia Devost: my heart has been broken enough. lol the worst is, i didnt expect anything. and i wasnt ever going to tell you that i love you. and you just... act like you love me. you talk about dates. you talk about real love. and i fucking believe it because im stupid. and now, because i believed you, youre pissed at me because im clingy.
[15/04/2014 01:43:46] Olivia Devost: fuck my life, seriously.
[15/04/2014 01:44:57] Olivia Devost: you know what you should do? go back up that chat. re-read. even the parts where its only me, typing. you'll see where you made the mistakes.
[15/04/2014 01:45:13] Beth (✿◠‿◠): why are you so mad
[15/04/2014 01:45:17] Beth (✿◠‿◠): jesus christ
[15/04/2014 01:45:19] Olivia Devost: because i love you!
[15/04/2014 01:45:20] Beth (✿◠‿◠): get a fucking grip
[15/04/2014 01:45:21] Beth (✿◠‿◠): okay
[15/04/2014 01:45:23] Olivia Devost: and i believed you!
[15/04/2014 01:45:23] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i love you too
[15/04/2014 01:45:30] Beth (✿◠‿◠): but you fucking know that we just wanted to be friends
[15/04/2014 01:46:47] Olivia Devost: YES! but when we talked i just... i didnt think we'd date ok. my heart never allowed me to go until there because i know you. but fuck. dont tell me you dont love me "like a girlfriend". Beth im pissed because no matter what you say, you did make me believe. fuck you said you'd take me on a freaking fucking date
[15/04/2014 01:47:43] Beth (✿◠‿◠): i would though! of course i would take you out on a date
[15/04/2014 01:47:45] Beth (✿◠‿◠): olivia
[15/04/2014 01:48:00] Beth (✿◠‿◠): you knbow how hard it is for me to step into something big like a relationship
[15/04/2014 01:48:16] Olivia Devost: i know! im not asking you to. i never would ask you that you know that!
[15/04/2014 01:48:23] Olivia Devost: well ok, i did once.
[15/04/2014 01:48:28] Olivia Devost: but i was desperate.
[15/04/2014 01:48:31] Olivia Devost: right now im not desperate
[15/04/2014 01:48:35] Olivia Devost: lol not yet
[15/04/2014 01:48:43] Olivia Devost: seriously tho. i know we wont date.
[15/04/2014 01:48:50] Olivia Devost: at least not for many many years
[15/04/2014 01:48:58] Olivia Devost: but whenever we get close you run away. why?
[15/04/2014 01:53:26] Olivia Devost: just.. dont push me away. i know its hard for you to believe the feelings i have for you and everything id do for you but... do you think id still be there after 9 months if i didnt really honestly, truly loved you with all m heart? id be long gone ok.
[15/04/2014 01:57:20] Olivia Devost: sigh. you want me to stop loving you Beth? forget it. it wont happen.
[15/04/2014 01:57:57] Olivia Devost: if you want me to stay away from you, i can do that
[15/04/2014 01:58:57] Olivia Devost: and if you honestly dont love me (because loving "as a friend" is fucking bullsit. if thats the only way you love me just dont say you love me at all)... then idk.
[15/04/2014 01:59:23] Olivia Devost: we can go back to how we were sunday or monday when we watched titanic together
[15/04/2014 01:59:39] Olivia Devost: but choose.
[15/04/2014 02:01:18] Olivia Devost: pick and stick to it. just know that i had fun every single time we talked. and on friday too.
[15/04/2014 02:03:03] Olivia Devost: or ignore me. that works too.
[15/04/2014 02:21:53] Olivia Devost: btw you completely confused me about what your "i love you" means so you should be clearer. so whenever youre ready to let me know what you decided, message me. you probably will never message me again but whatever. sigh. good night. and yes, i love you.
[17/04/2014 16:53:43] Olivia Devost: when youre done ignoring me we can make things clear and get this over with shall we. so, as usual, we can stop talking and i can try to get over you.